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तुमने कुछ कहा नहीं
हमने कुछ सुना नहीं
हमने जो देखा
वो तुम्हे दिखाना नहीं...

आरजू थे जो कुछ तुम्हारे
तुमने कभी जताए नहीं
हमने भी अपने खयालोंको
कभी बताया नहीं...

नजाने कैसे ये खाव्ब है
कैसी ये बेताबी है
जो अफसाना सुलझाना था
वही उलझ रहा है...

किसने ये गम का तराना छेड़ा
क्यों इस शाम को मायूस किया
जो अनकहा अनसुना था
क्यों किसीने हलकेसे गुनगुना दिया...

रोज रत सिरहनेपर
आंखे नम होती है
आंसू गिरते भी
तो आवाज नहीं होती है...

कैसी ये खुदाई है,
कुछ तुमने महसूस किया
कुछ हमने मह्सुस किया
एह्सासोंके जुबानो को अगर्चे
किसीने सुना नहीं...

जुदा जुदा है रास्ते हमारे
जुदा जुदा ही चल रहे है
खैर, हमे तो बस इतनीही राहत है
तुम्हारे दिल का हाल भी
हमारे दिल से कुछ खास जुदा नहीं....

Marriage of convinence

Marriage of convinence: facts and fanatasies ya wishayawar parwa ek parisawand hota ani hi assignment majhykade hoti. pan tarihi kirti majhya sobat ali..kahitari weagale ani nawe aikawe mhnun amhi doghi gelo. ashwini abhyankar likhit "convinently yours forever" ya pustakache prakashan hote, tyaweli ha parisawand honar hota...social activist vidya bal, councellor vandana kulkarni, writer prabhakar karandikar he waqte hote...ya parisawandatun apli pidhi kiti lightly lagana kade pahate hech spasht hot hote rather yatil anek mudde malahi patat hotech..soyarik julatana soye pahane he chuk nahich pan compatibilty hi titkich mhatwachi aste ani aapan mhnje tarun nemake compatilbilitycha vichar sarawat shewati karto....lagan ya process kade far negatively pahto...aapla khup gondhal ahe ani neat kahich thauk nahi..he sagal mala aswasth karat hote...

To be frank mihi ya process kade atayant negatively pahate..konas thauk ka pan mala yacha vichar karyach mhntale tari chidchid hote..nakoch watat te sagal...kahitari khup motha- awaghad parasha samor thewalyasarkhe hote ani ugich tras watato...gondhalyasarkhe...

Pariswandat hi hech sagal hote...aajchi pidhiche careervishai..dreams vishai ek dum clear vission astata tyanche..agadich clear nasale tari kahi tari spasht astach tyana..pan tech laganawishai mhntale tar agadich udasin (i am just like that)..kahi vicharch tayar nasto...kasa haway jodidar yache neat uttarch deta yet nahi..(malahi nahi deta yenar kasa haway to..khar tar miihi far vichar nahich kelela)...aai baba baghtil...tharawatil kay te..shewati nirnay tyanacha gyacha ahe ase uttar deun aapn apli baju jhatkun mokale hoto as sagale jan mhnat hote...ayushyatil etkya mothya nirnayavishai itake udasin kase...ayushyacha sobati, jyachyamule ayushyala weagle pariman, ayam milnar astat tya saglyakade far negative ahot..shiway aple palak te adhich tharwat aplyala yatil kahich kalat nahi mhnun..mag apli udasinata ankhi wadharach na!

Ithe sarwjan mhnat hote ki lagn hi sanstha manasachya badalelya wegapramne ani nwya swarupat yayalach havi, rather ti kalanusar badalat geli aselch mhnun ti tikat geli..pan tarihi aaj mulgi pahane-dakhawne he typical suruch aste..tyatun nawe paryay shodhale jatat..live in relationship, trial marraige...contract marriage.. he prayog ahet ani te honarch...convience sarwat adhi asto...amkyabarobar rahatana soye hote ki nahi he pahile paahhile jate..pan shewti shashwat nat nirman karnyasathi parsparpurkata, paraspar wishawas, he mhtawache aste, sah jeewanat surwatila soye pahuyat mhntalo tari kahi varshat ya soyiche mhtawe galun gele aste ani tithe compatiblity ahe ki nahi he pahne garjeche watate...aaj tarun man jage jhalay tyamule laganatil gunwatta wadhali ahe ani divorce che pramanhi wadhale ahet...arrange marrige madhil so called yashaswi laganpekshahi samjun umjun keleli lagne hi adhik anadi ani sukhi disatat ani astat hi... he sagale patat hote...padhadichya maragane jaun kahi hot nahi kinwa tyala chhed ch dyacha mhnun aaj prayogshilta wadhaleli ahe...lagan tari apwad kasa rahil...

Aplya pidhicha gondhalch itaka ahe ki apan tari kay karnar...aple palak kuthe mhntat, chukala tar chukalat amhi ahot pan tumhala naki kay hawe te spasht kara..kuthe wegale paryay khulepanane swikartat mag gondholch gondhal hoto ani sagli jababdari tychyawar sopaun mokale whawas watat..

lagan sahan goshtit aple mat nahi ghetale tari mala tras hoto pan itkya mothy vishayat sadh majhe mat hi janun ghetale gelele nahi ani malahi tyasathi kadhi bhandawa watal nahi so called sanskarat ya goshti yet nahi hech thauk...rather aaj mala yawishai matach nahi..mala naki kay haw kinwa kay nako he kunala aikawese watlech nahi tyamule malahi kadhi vichar karaws watala nahi ani aaj ashi paristithi ahe ki mala kahi mat hi nahi ani ata banawata yeil ka nahi tehi thauk nahi....

6-7 mahinyapurvi amhi 7 jan milun yuwache pan karaycho...sunday hota ani amhi vishay kay ghyacha yawar doke ladhawat hoto..tyatun lagan ani tya proceesskade apli pidhi kay mhnun baghatek ha vishay tharala...laganatun kay apekshit ahe ani tyachi process kashi hot jawi yawar tarunache opinion wagere wagre..ya gappat me shantch hote...mag amchi hi charcha amchyawar ghasarli, ki aapan hi tar tarunache pratinidhitwa karato tar kay vichar karato..amchyamadhe 1 committed hota ani ek shadishuda...pahili target mich jhale.. me tyawelet manat aleli khup spontaneous reactin dili..utsfurt vichar...mala bhawanik guntawnuk mhtawachi watate tyamule lagan ha khup nantarcha vichar vatato...tyala kinwa mala konalahi emotional support hawa asel tar mast bhetaycha, firaych, gappa maraychya...hawe te share karaycha ani mag diwas sampala ki apaplya ghari jayche....amhi ek sarkhe nasu, vichar hi sarkhe nastil rather yanchyat simmilar kay ahe as prashn padala tari harkar nahi pan tarihi amhi amchya patlyawarun samjun gheu shakt asu..adar karat asu tari pure na..basically kaslyahi patliche ani kuthalyahi vishayche sharing mhtawache..tyala ani mala amhala doghana hi amhi awadalo pahijet khuppppp..ani prem watale ki mag ahech relationmadhe adkane..ektra yaylach hawe ase watale ki mag nirnay ahech....ya process la kiti diwas, mahine, varsh lagtil he mala nahi thauk kiman majhyawatine tari nahi thauk....baas me ajun sampawle hi nahi te sarwani comment karayala, khechayla surwat keli...he jara forwardch ahe..(majhya simpal rahimanawarun ani kahishya gharelu lookwarunch opinion bar ka)...u r nothing but dreaming ani tehi ashkya swapn...agadi he live in tar ahe fakt aplya gharat rahaychahe pasun te mag lagan karaychach kashala ithpryant...

Ya wishayala gheun majhe so called brain washing karnyacha hi praytan jahala...me jara atich impracticle hot ahe...he as pratyakshat ghadat nahi...palakana ghai aste ani mule hi thambat nahi itprayant nirniralay padhatine sangun jahale(thats what the reson i dont like tis topic as everybody start giving lecture) ekane mag mala thetch vichare and what about biological need...manasale ti watatech na...frankaly speaking today also not prepared..tewha mhnale hote ki need ch asel tar mag to ti kuthun hi fulfill karu shakelch ki...(yawar prash vicharnarya majhay mitracha chehara asa kahi jhala hota ki..uske bas me hota to wo tabhi dimag nikal ke dho dalata)..me punha mhnale need ch asel tar kay bolanar na...haluwar bhawanecha ek bindu., ek anubhuti hawi asel tar tyala kon haway he toch nahi ka tharwu shakanar...manatil asankhya umatanarya bhawnechi garaj ani magni hi wegali aste...apalya bhawaticha awakash koni modawa ani tyat koni shirawe, aplya agadi agadi jwal koni yawe he pratekjan swatch tharwu shakte...to awkash koni modala tar chalel yache aple aple kahi niyam astat ani vyakhyahi..copmatibilty mhtawachi ki need..apala prawas asa ulatach asto adhi biological garaja (nisarg niyamachya nawakhali) ani prem kinwa parsapar purkata, paraspar sawedana nantar...mala adhi he apekshit ahe nanatar sharir he madyamhi tumchyahi nakalat galun padatech ki...manaparyantacha prawas suruch nahi karaycha ani sharirapryant yayche...konas thauk ka pan jara vichitrach watate...majya ya bakabakiwar mitarne shantch rahne pasand kele..argu karun kay karanra asehi watale ani nako tya swapancha vichar karte asehi tyala watale...tya kshani amchya natyasathi tyane niwadaleli soy malahi ugichach changali watali..ektar majh tyala patnar nwhat ani dusar mala as watat ki khawb jab tak hakikat ban jaye ya jindagi ke hakikatse khawb rubaroo hone tak khawb dekhane me harj hi kya hai...

Parisawnda nantar he sagale athawt hote...me ani kirti officemdhe yeyiprayant chrcha karat hoto.. ani ya junya athwani tajya jhalya...amhi ajun hi negativelycha ka vichar karatoy as watun need councelling asehi tyweles watale...ekunch apla gondhal kami honya aiwaji wadhatch jatoy...but friends wish u compatilble partner....

kal me lihile hote pan comp ne dhoka diya so aaj punha lihile

Plz do have comments..share ur views also...just wants to chek whether we all thin diffrently or apla pratekacha gondhal pan nirala ahe...

:)

Do you have some1 special???

Hey Heena, do u hav boy friend??? i just shocked when ruksana asked me this question....she and i just met in morning and at night she asked me such starnge question. i had went latur district regarding some studies...waha ghumane ke liye wo meri madad karnewali thi...15th sep ke morning me hm dono pahelibar ek dusare se mile..she is elder than me so i prefer to call her didi over ruksana...pure din hm sath me ghume, usne kai logose mujhe milawaya...i jst impressed by her confidence and talketive nature...

Ratme khana ho gaya so i just helping her to clean the utensils, she suddenly asked me, do u have some 1 special in your life...???do pal i was just blank, cause hum log studies ke bare me bat kar rahe the aur achanak se ye kya sawal..i just smiled and answred no didi....'how could??' mujhe is sawal pe bahot hasi aa gayi maine kaha ab nahi hai to kaise ka kya matlab?? fir puchha tum sach me single ho??? ha didi, kaha aur bartan rakhne lag gayi, waise wo mujhe room me lekar gayi aur bed par bidhaya achha tumhe koi pasand to hoga na par
"to how could i remain single, basically aaj tak kisise dil lagaye aisa koi mila nahi hoga, milega to dil bhi lagega"
"hmmm sach re but i dont belive"
"bat sirf pasand ki hai to i like many of friends but if u talk in context of love...it is going to happen at present nothing like that..."
"acchha batao tumhe to kisine pasand kiya hoga na" i just laugh on that and replied "in that case also main single kaise rah sakti hu....." :)
"bano mat ha, kisine to pasand kiya hi hoga...i am sure...subahse main tumhare saath hu i find u as very generous person (ek din me aisa kya find kiya use hi pata)..a smart girl...tumse milane se pahele mujhe laga tha ki pata nahi kaisi hogi tum..uparase pune se anewali matlab to city ki ladki...najane kaisa hoga tumhara aproch par maine tumhe bahot alat paya...har ek se u talk very gently..bahot hi adjustive lagi...mai agar tumhe itanese pal me pasand karsakti hu to abtak how could no guy approch u..kisiko bhi tum achhi nahi lagi." (uska ye sabkuch mujhe bahot ajib lag raha tha..aur pata nhi har koi inhi batome interest kyo dikhana chahata hai....uuuumm)
"dekho na kisiko bhi achhi nahi lagi..can we change the topic plzzzzz..mujhe tayari bhi to karni hai"
"nahi"
"...."
"tum batna nahi chahati hogi hmari itani jan pahchan kaha hai, hmm chhodo"
"...."
"so u r ignoring me..right?"
"what rubbish aisa kuch bhi nahi hai..chupane layak kuch nahi ab tayari karne chale..feeling like sleepy..kuch aur bat kare"
" see heena u are ignoring me"
"..."
"are sachhi me kisine pasand nahi kiya...kiya hoga to kisine bataya nahi....bataya nahi to mujhe pata nahi aur mujhe pata nahi isliye apko bata nahi sakti..ek tha jiski shayad mai crush rah chuki hu..its that simple di..fine...happy...ab chale"
"are u sure na noone likes u"
"filhal to sure"
i just went out from that room..but she persued me and catch at another room where i was started packeing my bag. Heena, agar tum mujhe pahele milati to mera ek dur ka dewar tha...
now i gave her dirty look...usne bat ko majak ke taur se dauharaya..fir kaha are sach re tumhe pahle milane kya huwa tha? i reallyyyy just ignored her at this time ...she continues her bakbak...

(i dont understand what she finds in me....predictions galat bhi to ho sakte hai na) fir us bat ko hi wahi chhhodane ke liye kaha..warana age bat hi nahi hogi..she promise me and at night i left her.

Ye sara kissa is liye yad aya kyonki aajhi subah uska phn huwa...bate hui aur usne firse kaha...tumhe pahle milane kya huwa tha....par isbar main kuch bhi kahanese pahle hi kaha..kahane ka matlab hai..ki hamari dosti aur gahari hoti na...is bat par ham dono bhi has padhe....!!!